For once I feel optimistic.
I put on my size medium Forever 21 dress (the one I was horrified to put on since it wasn't "small") and sucked it up. I wanted to look prety and grey roses would do that, regardless of the size.
I topped it off my gorgeous but neglected Dolce and Gabbana Tuxedo coat and my birthday present: Vegan leather "Japanese Paper" Magenta tote by Mat and Nat.
And sparkly things for my feet. If you can't wear sparkles, sequins, snakeskin and silver on your birthday, when can you?
I know I was super down/crazy/stressed the other day and I wanted you all to know I am doing better. I have major issues and anger problems and was tired of flying off the handle. I got so mad at my "tired" appearance the other day that I bit my compact and cracked the mirror which shattered in my mouth.
Yeaaaaah. New low.
So I've stopped to re-examine what has been setting me off lately and it has come down to money and appearance...two things that are easily fixable. The former is pretty much fixed because I was approved to re-finance my mortgage which means next week all of my credit card debt (plus some of my bf's debt) will be paid off in FULL. That's three cards ripped up and closed (with my low-interest, low limit one paid off as well but open for sporadic use). And I will have a tiny bit left over to go into a high-interest savings account for emergencies. Finally.
The latter will come along if I just keep getting up at 6AM (like I did today, even though it's my bday and I did give myself permission to sleep in if I wanted to) and jogging. I can only go for 15 minutes before I need a break but I'm slowly working my way up to a 1/2 hour run.
Also, my life is lacking stimulation, which I have started to fix by taking a cooking class (see later in post), signing up for a travel and food writing course in Feb and trying to more new and interesting things. Novelty is key right now. Passion is missing. I'm also going to take up yoga once a week at night and maybe a singing lesson or too. What a scary thing I find singing - I wish I liked the sound of my voice so I'm hoping that I can learn enough to not break my own eardrums. And so I can rule at Rock Band.
Finally, my tempermental, anxious, SPAZMATRON personality needs a reboot too. I have re-discovered Bach's Rescue Remedy Spray which has really been making me mellow out when things get rough. Sometimes, a little too well. And remembering to breathe can really helps too.
Anyway, the cooking class, yes. Part of my stimulation plan. My boyfriend and I took a couples class last night and it was amazing. We learned how to make rack of lamb with mint salsa and crepes with apples, brandy and camembert.
I was in charge of making the crepes for the whole class and it was nerve-wracking being at the front, flipping the runny batter in a heavy cast iron pan and hoping for the best. But as scary as it was, I learned so much and felt so alive in doing so. Even better was getting to eat our efforts afterwards. Y-U-M! I'll post the recipes here next week.
So that's that.
OH WAIT. I knew there was something else!
The winners of the prizes (for your votes last post) are.....
Marta!! and.... ALice! Two very lovely ladies! YAY! Please email me your contact info so I can get those out to you. As for my last mailout, Wisco you should have yours by now and Eleh, your earrings will be sent Monday -had to wait for them to arrive first!!
Hope you all have a great day like I am having so far (I gave my boss some rescue spray and she's calmed down a lot too, lol). Look for my next post, it's bound to give you some giggles and rekindle some nostalgia for the days gone by ;)